its my last night in Davao and tomorrow morning im going to leave back to Butuan. im gonna miss everybody :( im just grateful that i got to have my training in that restaurant and that i met a group of amazing, funny and great people who kinda helped me, maybe not completely out of my shell, so im gonna say they helped me crack my shell because i still feel awkward and uncomfortable and shy with my other classmates when we went to their boarding house for a meeting with our instructor. i wanna thank them for everything. (i dont wanna cry right now) im gonna miss them and im gonna treasure my moments with them forever. and im grateful and very happy that i spent, like, the best days, or like month, of my life.
rn, im kinda hoping that they’d read this but i think that’d be a little embarrassing.
i really dont wanna leave yet because i feel like this is my home noe and theyre my family, big family. and im gonna go offline now because i wanna go see them in the restaurant. Actually, they’re on duty right now and i just almost finished putting my things in my bags and im not having a good time with them because i have too much stuff so im gonna sell my two small square pillows and bed sheet to my co-worker in the restaurant.
i dont want to leave but i have to. i feel like this is my real life “Spring Breakers”experience because i kind of found myself and i got to meet new people and i made new friends and i also kind of like found love or maybe just a puppy love. and i feel like im gonns go back home, and maybe pretend that all this never happened and, i might go back to my old life back home and to my old self, but i hope i wont. i feel like a different person now. i see life as enjoyable and colorful and fun (you know, like Vanessa’s line at the end of the movie, when she called her mom) and i kinda dont wanna go back being an obsessed and avid fangirl. because i realized that being a fangirl is not healthy and that i would have more fun in life if i would go outside and habg out with friends and meet new people and make new friends and create memories.
i think that is all… so, bye!! :D (but im still sad though)
last night, we went to my classmates’ boarding where i also used to live. we went there to have fun and play cards. we laughed a lot and hard but we tried not to laugh out loud so we wont disturb the other boarderd who are already in bed.
i tell myself that this is the best timre and experience of my life. being here and having amazing, fun friends and being happy and enjoying every moment while im still here cuz im not sure whether i’ll stay like this or i’ll come back to my old self. i never laughed so hard and i never smiled like this before. i cant believe that im coming out of my shell. thanks to our supervisor (even though shes mean and we kinda dont like her) shes the one who told me that i should get out of the box which is my comfort zone and that i should get out and explore. cuz if i wobt , i will not grow. i will stay in that boring box my whole life. and also to the guy who i like (lol). he told me to explore and know myself and experience how it’s like to be in a relationship.
im gonna miss them and this experiencr and i will definitely never forget them. and of course most of all i wanna thank God for bringing me here to Davao and to the restaurant where we have our On The Job Training. and for making me strong and encouraging me when i wantd to give up in the beginning. cuz i really wanted to not continue this OJT and go home and stop studying and do something else. but i didnt know what i woukd do if i stop studying.
i kinda dont miss being an active fan right now. actually, i love this life i have right now. not watching tv, not going online too much and not updating myself of all the Vanessa Hudgens stuff. this is one of the reasons why i dont wanna go back home. i just wanna stay here in Davao and continue doing my OJT. im loving it here and i cant believe that i’ll be coming back home and to my old life in more than a week. but im hoping that i wont be the samr Me when i come back home. i want to be mature a little bit and stop being lazy and being an internet and fan freak
okay. the $$$ex video is so cool! Vanessa is definitely the highlight of the video and the song itself. i loved all her parts. she was sexy but she was also cute. she was jumping around with them and she didnt know that she looked cute doing just doing that. but still, she was hot and sexy and cute. those three never leave her.
here’s the MV if you haven’t watched it https://www.youtube.com/embed/YRTART39Lnc
am i the only one who still thinks about Spring Breakers?
last night was awesome, but not so much, because i took an order last night! im proud of myself and our supervisor even saw me telling M, the guy who i work with that i called to help me, that i will take the order.. haha
i miss Vanessa so much. i bet ive missed many events she attended and do many candids
there are some few guys having a crush on me here, but theres a couple of guys who i work with in the restaurant that really hits in me. the other guys just stare at me or look at me sometimes. but these two guys are really kinda annoying sometimes,specially this M guy cuz hes very protective and the other guy, V, hes cute, i like the way he smiles but i deny my feelings for him. theyre both touchy, like, they hold or touch my hand or arm. but they bith have girlfriends, tho they always deny it even tho i already know. V told me about his girlfriend yesterday. he said he wants to marry her but she gets mad at him. she told him that she feels bad that she broke up with her ex. she also say hurtful things to him.he told me he kinda wants to break up with her but he said he respect girls so hed rather have his gf break up with him than him breaking up with her. now i kinda feel that he really likes me and now i kinda understand why he flirts with me and why he wants me to be his gf. but he told me that if ever theyll breakup, he doesnt want to be in a relationship for a while.
sorry for writing about somebody else’s life.
Let me tell you a story about an old man and an old lady. my friend and i went to the mall yesterday. then when we were going back to the restaurant where we are having our OJT (on the job training) we saw an old couple being sweet in the multicab. it’s like a small jeepney.. the old man has his arm on his old lady & she’s holding his hand. they’re kinda like snuggling. because it was raining yesterday. my friend snapped a photo of them secretly because i texted her that i want to take a photo of them but my phone would make a sound when i take pictures.. my friend texted me “look at them, they’re so lovng” & i texted back “i know. i want to take a photo of them” LOL.
it was like the best couple i saw inmy entire life. i mean, because they’re already old and they still do that . all the sweet stuff.(or maybe not all) haha
btw, that’s all. :)
fml. im on my OJT
i haven’tben online beccause I’m in Davao City for our OJT and i dont have much time to go to a internet cafe and use the interrnet. i also didnt bringa laptop, but i brought my tablet, but the problem is there’sno wifi! fml.
i miss tweeting and reblogging. but most of all i miss Vanessa Hudgens so much. and of course my family. but they are visiting me tomorrow which im very excited about!
but i’ll try to catch up when i come back. i’ll be finished with my OJT hopefully on May 30. so, please guys wait for me. i’ll be filling up my tweets and tumblr again! hehe. i really miss the virtual world.
im so anxious right now because me and my classmates and one of our instructors are going to Davao for our first OJT! and it’s gonna be my first time to leave for so long (2 months). and its gonna be my first time to live in a boarding house with my friends