I have this friend and sometimes I kinda don’t like her. And I just realized that it’s worth it being friends with her because I got to do and maybe also learned,(more like not from her but because of her) I get to do some things that I have like 2 percent of guts to do. Like I get to go in the faculty office first and ask an instructor about something. She gets bossy sometimes, which I hate. This is what I’ve noticed before, she gets bossy to our friend that we used to always hangout with and like probably to other people. She’s kinda shy sometimes but she’s more confident than me. I’m always the least when it comes to who’s more or the most confident. Because I’m really shy. Like super shy. So, I just look at it as a practice or challenge for me, you know, to be more confident, at least, bit by bit. And this thing popped up on my mind: the saying like ‘people come into your life for some reasons, because everything happens for a reason, right? Reasons like to learn from mistakes. So I’m thinking, is it a mistake that we because friends? Because I learned and get to do some things because of her. But at least it’s a good mistake right? But now I just realized again that it’s not really a mistake. It’s like an incident that happened and I learn from that person. Di’ba? Hehe

I learned a lesson though, which is to not do anything like simangot, dabog or anything like that in front of people especially when you really need to respect them, because you will really regret it like what happened to me when I went to the City Health in the City Hall to get a health card. This already happened to me before, but then again, sometimes things has to come back or has to be repeated so you could really learn from those things. Like for me, now I don’t wanna do that anymore to anyone, because it’s rude and disrespectful. Just because they were working slowly, doesn’t mean I have to disrespect them. They’re still older than me and they’re still going to give what I need.

I also realized this: If you are a joker person and you do and say funny and silly things. And sometimes you act like, for example, a slutty person, that doesn’t mean you’re really a slutty person. You’re just the jokester one not the slutty one. It’s like when an actor is acting for a movie. He’s just being like the joker, he acts like a certain person but that’s not who he really is. So, that person is an actor or a joker and not the persons that they portray or act.

One night, I was looking at some pictures of Austin and Vanessa and in my head, im like “I can’t really believe that she’s dating a different guy now. It’s not Zac Efron anymore. Like this is so weird. I never thought that this guy, Austin Butler, who I’ve seen in some shows like Hannah Montana and the movie Aliens in the Atic, where he worked with Ashley Tisdale. And he was so young that time and now like a couple of years later, he had another movie with Ashley, the Sharpay’s Fabulous Adventures. And like another year later, he’s making out with Vanessa and holding hands with her, and probably having sex with her and that he is the guy who Vanessa chose to try to love again. Like, ‘Wow! This is like a miracle!’ now I really believe that miracles happen everyday. And really just expect the unexpected and don’t expect the expected. Or just don’t expect anything at all!

I honestly at some point thought of Zanessa breaking up. Because I was kinda disappointed at Zac for kissing a girl in an interview and I feel like what he did was cheating… on Vanessa! Which is so not cool for me. So I was like, ‘I hope she breaks his heart’. But when they actually broke up, my heart was broken too. It’s like, the thing that I said just bounced to me. Like I wanted Zac heart broken, but it ended up me also heartbroken!