its my last night in Davao and tomorrow morning im going to leave back to Butuan. im gonna miss everybody :( im just grateful that i got to have my training in that restaurant and that i met a group of amazing, funny and great people who kinda helped me, maybe not completely out of my shell, so im gonna say they helped me crack my shell because i still feel awkward and uncomfortable and shy with my other classmates when we went to their boarding house for a meeting with our instructor. i wanna thank them for everything. (i dont wanna cry right now) im gonna miss them and im gonna treasure my moments with them forever. and im grateful and very happy that i spent, like, the best days, or like month, of my life.

rn, im kinda hoping that they’d read this but i think that’d be a little embarrassing.

i really dont wanna leave yet because i feel like this is my home noe and theyre my family, big family. and im gonna go offline now because i wanna go see them in the restaurant. Actually, they’re on duty right now and i just almost finished putting my things in my bags and im not having a good time with them because i have too much stuff so im gonna sell my two small square pillows and bed sheet to my co-worker in the restaurant.

i dont want to leave but i have to. i feel like this is my real life “Spring Breakers”experience because i kind of found myself and i got to meet new people and i made new friends and i also kind of like found love or maybe just a puppy love. and i feel like im gonns go back home, and maybe pretend that all this never happened and, i might go back to my old life back home and to my old self, but i hope i wont. i feel like a different person now. i see life as enjoyable and colorful and fun (you know, like Vanessa’s line at the end of the movie, when she called her mom) and i kinda dont wanna go back being an obsessed and avid fangirl. because i realized that being a fangirl is not healthy and that i would have more fun in life if i would go outside and habg out with friends and meet new people and make new friends and create memories.

i think that is all… so, bye!! :D (but im still sad though)

last night, we went to my classmates’ boarding where i also used to live. we went there to have fun and play cards. we laughed a lot and hard but we tried not to laugh out loud so we wont disturb the other boarderd who are already in bed.

i tell myself that this is the best timre and experience of my life. being here and having amazing, fun friends and being happy and enjoying every moment while im still here cuz im not sure whether i’ll stay like this or i’ll come back to my old self. i never laughed so hard and i never smiled like this before. i cant believe that im coming out of my shell. thanks to our supervisor (even though shes mean and we kinda dont like her) shes the one who told me that i should get out of the box which is my comfort zone and that i should get out and explore. cuz if i wobt , i will not grow. i will stay in that boring box my whole life. and also to the guy who i like (lol). he told me to explore and know myself and experience how it’s like to be in a relationship.

im gonna miss them and this experiencr and i will definitely never forget them. and of course most of all i wanna thank God for bringing me here to Davao and to the restaurant where we have our On The Job Training. and for making me strong and encouraging me when i wantd to give up in the beginning. cuz i really wanted to not continue this OJT and go home and stop studying and do something else. but i didnt know what i woukd do if i stop studying.

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